Vicky Biccy's Blog

Under the weather

So... I had a rubbish weekend. In parts. In other parts, it was great, I went to two parties, saw some old friends, had some good times. But when the door was shut and it was just me, my party face fell off and I felt like there was a big black sky over my head.

I guess i've had a fair bit of stress building up over the last few months, and I'm usually pretty good at ignoring that kinda thing. But this weekend my body and my emotions got a big bullhorn and shouted in my face: STOP! SLOW DOWN!

To be honest, I was a little scared... am I clinically depressed? Do I need to book myself in for the doctors, and get some counselling? So far, I think the answer's no. Sometimes that IS the case, and we need to take this stuff seriously. But other times, maybe we need to just give ourselves permission to be a bit 'under the weather' occasionally. Whatever happened to 'blue' days? Are we pressuring ourselves to be happy all the time? If those 'sad days' turn into sad weeks and months, then we need to admit that and get some help to tackle the situation.

For me, right now, I think I just need a bit of a rest. I need to turn off my 'work' head when I get home, and purposefully chill out: Do things that help me to remember what's great about my life, talk to my friends, get some early nights, and, as my mother suggested, eat some strawberries and cream.

If we don't give ourselves permission to admit that life can be hard sometimes, then somewhere along the line we'll end up burnt out! It's okay to admit we've fallen down before we go about picking ourselves back up again. I'm sure I'll be 'right as rain' in 'no time at all', but in the meantime, I'm gonna give myself a break.

Created on Wed 28th November 2007 16:53